Can you want something—or someone—so badly that you change your destiny? Elyse Schmidt never would have believed it, until it happened to her. When Elyse and her not-so-secret crush, Josh Harris, are the sole survivors of a plane crash, tragedy binds them together. It’s as if their love story is meant to be. Everything is perfect, or as perfect as it can be when you’ve literally fallen out of the sky and landed hard on the side of a mountain—until suddenly it isn’t. And when the pieces of Elyse’s life stop fitting together, what is left?
272 pages | October 30 2018
The most significant thing about this book is that it’s written in second person. This is so rare for me!!!!???? The only other books I’ve read in this point of view were choose-your-own-adventures.
So, this book gave me an entirely new perspective on narration.
I would recommend the book for that reason alone.
I would also recommend to anyone who wants to be emotionally crushed and tormented.
Being Emotionally Attacked
The emotional build-up was SO EXTREME. By the end I was crying.My eyes were legitimately blurry with tears. And I never react this way about anything,
ever since I became soulless in 2017.
But I CRIED OVER OUR MC, ELYSE. She is so small, she’s literally under 5 ft. and she’s imaginative and her life has barely started????? But now she’s devastated by grief.
I don’t handle it well when my characters are involved in plane crashes. It’s not something I encourage from writers at all. By saying that, I really mean please place all my favorite characters in a plane crash scenario so I can distress over them.
The Bad Romance (let’s talk about how unhealthy this relationship is!)
They really should’ve stuck with friendship. Why you ask?
At one point Elyse has a panic attack while with Josh. Let’s see how he reacts.
Josh: “Schmidt, stop it! Hey! What are you doing?”
Elyse: You make a humming sound in your throat. Your brain starts to feel heavy and magnetic, like it’s being pulled into the ground.
Josh: “Schmidt. Hey,” He grabs you. Then he is shaking you, your whole body is vibrating. “Breathe. Just breathe.”
I would like to state that this is FOR SURE not how you handle a panic attack. I’ve experienced these and the absolute last thing I want is for someone to shake me and tell me to stop.
I mean. JOSH. BUTTERCUP. THIS IS COMMON SENSE.
Some panic attack tips: Refrain from doing anything Josh does. Instead, stay calm and positive and gently offer a hug or something. Avoid being a condescending jerk. This is my completely unprofessional advice but it’s 100% more effective than Josh’s approach, or your money back.
Josh, in general, is not a great boyfriend for Elyse. I tried so hard to like him for her sake. But overall, this didn’t feel like a romance. If anything, it’s about two characters who glorify one another in the face of trauma.
Their connection never felt real to me, even if I wanted it to SO MUCHHH. We hardly get any interracial couples in YA, so it felt like a missed opportunity when their love story lacked substance. But, at least we have Elyse crushing on him
unhealthily obsessing over him in a very cute creepy way, which was at least something?
Another thing that got on my nerves was that they called one another by their first AND last name. Always. They were f’ing determined. Josh was ALWAYS Josh Harris. Istg if I heard “Josh Harris” “jOsH hArRiS” “JOSH HARRIS” in my head one more time, I would’ve instantly banned the name from existence. Where there’s a will there’s a way.
The author intended it to be a unique quirk in their relationship, and it does have value as a metaphor for their lack of intimacy; the entire relationship is based on the way they imagine one another to be. Not how they actually are.
Which is one sure fire way to ensure it doesn’t last past prom ; )
My Feelings For Elyse
I really loved MY FEMALE PROTAGONIST! Elyse is so relatable. She’s a hypochondriac, has arthritis, and is generally nervous about everything (there for a minute I thought I was reading my autobiography). She’s also a person who dyes her hair in outrageous colors and draws graphic novels and shamelessly crushes on the object of her desires. I embraced her fundamentally.
As the plot went on, I felt like her dialogue was immature??? I don’t know, I guess I was just expecting her too be more of a badass after surviving a plane crash.
But, at the same time, as the story progressed I realized Elyse’s mental well-being was pretty shitty. I questioned her sanity 90% of the book. Not because she has short-term memory loss due to plane-related trauma, but because she isn’t fully connected with fundamental reality. She’s constantly questioning the absoluteness of her experiences.
And I loved her breakdown because I love being stressed out *winks sadly*
Overall, this book was NOT what I expected whatsoever in any way. There were some crazy plot twists (in fact, the entire plot was one tremendous collection of crazy) and I was emotionally wrecked. The characters aren’t even that great but I still felt attacked by everything they went through.
Have you ever read anything in second person POV?
Do you like seeing your characters go through tragic and extreme conditions? (don’t let me be evil alone ❤ )